Soul Sista Version 2.0

We finally started the seedlings for the garden. Eehh A little bit of a late start but we will see how well they do. The grass and flower seeds that I planted last week are already sprouting. I’m super tired but I don’t feel like getting in the bed yet.

I got Billy’s Bootcamp a few months ago and I haven’t used any of the dvds yet. I’m viewing the basic workout so that I can try it tomorrow. I’m not so sure about using bands which is ironic because I bought these dvds so I could use my resistance bands. I did the Biggest Loser Bootcamp for the first time today. I loved it. I was literally sweating buckets. I was sweating so hard while doing push ups that I couldn’t see out of my glasses. They were covered in water.Bootcamp isn’t as hard as Biggest Loser Cardio Max but it is pretty tough. Cardio Max is so hard that I can’t do the whole thing without taking a break between the segments with Jillian and Bob.

I have tons of workouts that I haven’t used so I’m going to stop buying them for a while unless I find some good ones at the thrift store. The only thing that I’m going to keep my eye out for online is level 2 of hip hop abs and the Hip Hop Ab Dance Party dvds. Other than that I’m finished buying workouts until I try all of mine. I might end up selling my Yoga Booty Ballet stuff. I want to like it but all the workouts are a little annoying. I don’t enjoy the moves at all.

My new mantra is: I’m fearfully and wonderfully made with strength, power, and grace. Anytime I feel weak or discouraged I’m going to use this to keep me focused.

I’ve been working hard in the yard. I removed 3 stumps from our old shrubs all by myself. I’m so proud. That was a really physically challenging task but I did it.

I’ve been feeling pretty good lately. I order new glasses last week. I should have them by the end of the week. I can’t wait to get them because mine have a cracked right lens and are pretty beat up.

I’m still going to try to lose 60 pounds by my birthday in August. I really want to be below 200 when I turn 25. I have a bad cycle that I’m trying to break. I do good with diet and exercise for a week then I eat whatever I want for a week. Basically I take one step forward and one back. I always get so tempted by the bad foods that everyone in my house gets to eat. I give into temptation for a little while then go back to being super strict. I need to find a balance from being overly strict and bingeing. I would have lost so much more weight in April if I had been consistent. I keep reminding myself that only 5% of people that lose weight keep it off and I have to fight to be one of those people. Skipping workouts is unacceptable. On days I don’t want to workout I have to at least do yoga or pilates.

I bought Hip Hop Abs last month and I’m totally obsessed. I love Shaun T. His personality is an acquired taste. I know some people may find him annoying but I love him. He literally makes me laugh out loud. I love his total body burn. Weights + dancing = I can’t get enough. I liked Hip Hop Abs so much that I bought Rockin Body which I also love. I usually don’t like dance workouts but his have inspired me to give my other ones a second chance. Shaun has a new workout coming out called Insanity that I just might have to try. I’m usually not a huge fan of Beachbody products but for some reason this one has really motivated me. I have tried Slim in 6, Power 90, Yoga Booty Ballet and Turbo Jam but Hip Hop Abs is by far my favorite. For the record I’ve never bought directly from Beachbody I usually get their workouts from ebay and the thrift store. I was lucky enough to get slim in 6 for 90 cents and Power 90 for 2 dollars.

I had a mixed week. I managed to read two books this week which is way more reading than I’ve managed to do in what seems like years.

I totally sucked on working out. I skipped quite a few workouts because I keep getting headaches for whatever reason. I think that my blood sugar was getting too low from me not eating enough. I ate way too much chili and other crap on Wednesday so I decide to drastically cut my calorie intake on Thursday and Friday which ended up being a wash because I couldn’t workout since I didn’t have energy. To top that all off it screwed up my metabolism so I only lost 2 pounds this week. GRRRR. The lesson I learned is that in order to workout as hard as I like to I have to eat or my body shuts down. Saturday I made some cookies and they made me feel better. I wasn’t so tired and my head stopped throbbing.

My mom and cousin got some more stuff for our garden this weekend. It’s going to be massive this year.
Tomatoes, squash, zuchinni, green onions, cucumbers, bell peppers, and hot peppers,spinach ,watermelon ,cantalope and like 100 other things. I’m excited I can’t wait to start planting this year.

• Lose 120 pounds this year thats 10 pounds a month (so far I’ve lost 27)
•  practice yoga and pilates regularly
• work on loosening up my right  hamstring and stop the pain in my right knee
• Do bonus ab work everday and tricep work
•  spring cleaning extravganza
• start selling craft books on etsy again
• make things to sell in my etsy shop
• stop buying workout equipment / workouts online

Last week was insane. My dad was having the most bizarre hallucinations about some creature biting his nuts and crawling up his butt. I know in theory this sounds funny but when he is screaming in terror for hours its barely a laughing matter. Tuesday morning he ended up going to the hospital because he begged my mom to call 911 and get him some help. He ended up staying in the hospital until Saturday. They ran some test and gave him new meds.They figured out that he had a small stroke sometime between now and December (the last time he went to the dr.). We suspect that it was the night he fell and was covered in blood but the ambulance wouldn’t take him away. Last night he was up to his same old tricks screaming and yelling all night. Tonight should be better because he has his new meds now.

I feel like a jerk I didn’t visit him at all this week. I just couldn’t. Emotionally I’m spent. I’ve reached my limit. There is always so much drama here that I just can’t engage in it anymore.

 I thought I had fallen in love with Turbo Jam but it was a sham. I really like the 20 minute workout but I tried the cardio mix 1 today and I didn’t even finish. It was annoying. I felt silly doing the moves and its way too much dancing. The cueing is bad. I’d rather do more serious boxing like Tae Bo. I love jumping rope its by far my favorite cardio activity. The only thing that sucks is that my knees hate me and have been hurting lately. I found some good stretchs and exercises that have been helping them some so I’m going to keep on hopping until I can’t.

I usually don’t care that I’m single but  today really sucks. I’ve never had a valentine or a boyfriend and I’m almost 25.  I haven’t been on a date in almost 4 years and I cringe when men flirt with me.  I’m not so much bothered by the fact that I don’t date its more that maybe I never will. I want to get married one day but I don’t even know where to begin when it comes to meeting the type of guy that I could be with for a very long time. Le Sigh 

Thinking about these little statistics concerning my lack of a love life lead me to eat 2 desserts today. Which is super strange. I usually don’t even like sweet things but that mint chocolate chip ice cream  was calling my name .To make things worst the serving size I ate was more than the 1/2 cup that it should have been. Then I had a huge craving for  Jello Pudding. The sugar free kind that is vanilla with carmel sauce rocks my socks off. Now I feel really guilty  so I think I’m going to workout super hard tonight.